full speed amuck

too fast.

things are moving too fast.

if you could see me from where you are, you’d have no idea what i’m going on about.

it’s not speed as in too much to do or too much waiting to be done,

it’s just feeling thinking that’s pulling me in too many directions

to focus on just one.

doesn’t help that it’s raining heavily,

that cold, damp kind of fall rain

that gets in your bones and makes it hard to get warm.

here’s my temporary solution:

IMG_7032cashmere.  100%.

i’m knitting it intentionally, slowly.

changed to bamboo needles to force the slow down a bit more.

i can feel it beginning to work, my head beginning to calm.

just a few more hours of this

(yes, i said hours)

and i think things will center back at about normal.

mental crisis diverted.

‘calm’ taken from 107:30 of the psalms.