sharply. suddenly. it has turned bitterly cold. this reminds me of the friends i made working at the rehab because it was just this kind of cold that drove them indoors and into often temporary sobriety of one form or another.
addiction is not so much a leering leviathan to be slain as it is daily skirmishes that wear you down until the pit you’ve crawled out of looks better than anything else you can think of at that moment or at any moment that you can currently remember.
i miss brooksie, whose death left me reeling, physically lacking his voice beside me on the box truck’s bench seat as i sang alone to the radio. work without him was always much too quiet.
i tied the monkey to a string around my neck,
that’s the only way i knew to get him off of my back.
he and that little tin drum beating on and on and always
my favorite Christmas song is not exactly a Christmas song at all.
i first heard it sitting in the back of a old parrot green datsun pick-up with a weathered blanket rolled up for a pillow behind my back, watching the stars. while, like an impromptu bass line, the rhythmic crashing of the waves on the sand sang along.
as did the boy (he whistled along actually)
sitting next to the girl i was that night
who became a man
who became my husband
and who then became the father of my children. now how cool is that?
‘mr. tanner’ can be found on “harry chapin’s greatest hits” or here sung live.